I should have dropped out of college

Yeah, I said it and I meant it! I should have dropped out! Or I should have gone to another school, even if it meant transfering with 12 hours left to graduate. I say this because while I'm grateful to have a good, 401k, insurance paying, opportunity to grow job in these tough economic times, I would so much rather be doing something else with my life. BUT, I am a slave to a car! Yes, a car I bought is the ONLY reason why I continue to stay in this state of contentment. But that’s really not the point. So I'm watching this documentary with black folks and for the life of Michael Jackson, I cannot remember what that ish was about! My brain had just shut the fudge off after I heard Keenan Ivory Wayans say something along the lines of "I begged my father to let me drop out of college to pursue my film dreams. He kept telling me to finish so that I can have something to fall back on. But if I HAD something to fall back on, I wouldn’t have tried as hard". Damn it! That's me! That's freaking me! I have allowed this freaking degree to be a crutch! Not to toot my own horn, but I'm funny as hell (and that’s me being modest) and I should be trying my best to be doing stand up or improv or something to utilize my artistic genius! But I am not trying hard enough because I honestly feel I don’t have to. I have a degree to fall back on. So once I DO decide to try something, my attention span that is as big as an 8 year old at a candy store kicks in and I usually push it to the side. Now, to give myself some credit, I really didn't have any plans of working in the film industry until I was probably a junior/senior in college. By that time, I felt like I made it too far in my education to quit or transfer. I should have just bit the bullet and did it. Now, I do finance for the man! Finance?! I went my whole college life avoiding majors and minors to not take math classes and now i work in finance?! What the hell?! So now, I just have to consciously push myself and as much I prefer not working with others, I need to work with others to keep me focus. There's not too much I can do now about this damn degree. I have it. Great. Whoopty doo! But I hope when I have children, IF they show a real passion in something, I hope I can remember this blog and let them pursue whatever it is they feel. You know, lets say my child is like Pharrell Williams. Been in band since the 7th grade, produced beats all through high school and maybe sells a beat to the school rapper for 100 bucks, I'll cut him/her a deal: "Hey, if you wanna skip school for a while, fine. But you will work and if your business is not picking up within the next 4-6 years, then you go back to school". Because the truth is, you are NEVER too old to go back to school but you can be too old or have too many responsibilities to start your life over just to follow a dream. So what's the rush to get a degree in four years to only have a job (not career) that you are not really passionate about and that damn degree wasn’t even needed for that job?! Now, this is not to offend anyone in school or to knock anyone elses degree or lack thereof. This is just the way i feel about a degree pursued and not being used. Some of you may understand. Some of you have a degree in the arts and yet you have found yourself working in corporate America because the arts just dont pay the bills...at least not right out of school it doesn't. And for those of you of are living your dreams: I applaud you! I know that ish is not easy and your drive is highly admired by me. But I sooo get Kanye's College Drop out skits now!! LOL! This degree is merely a piece of paper that aint even paid for yet!! But this is not a sad story people. I have some things in the works right now and I am collaborating with others and hopefully having 3-5 people on my back to get something done will help me go ahead and get that ish done! Good night!

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