Disgusting!

Before reading any further, please understand that this blog does not have a happy ending, nor a bad one. It is what it it. Nothing really gets resolved and there is not answer at the end. Its just me getting something off my chest!

Have you ever just felt complete disgust for yourself? It may have been something you said (cursed out a good fried) or did (one night stand), but you just really kind of let yourself down. Beat yourself up maybe? My absolute disgust came to me while spending time on my beloved facebook. So a friend of mine had something on her status along the lines of “Don’t mess with a girls heart and her money”. Without second guessing, I seconded that notion with a quote from Lauryn Hill: “never underestimate those who you scar cuz, karma, karma, karma comes back to you hard”! Now, the disgust is not on the surface of what I said, but from the heart in which it came from. It is not a secret that I without a doubt love hip hop! You can toss out any hot line and I can probably in 10 seconds or less give you the artist, album and song title from which that quote came from. Now, I don’t think it’s a secret either that I love God, but why is it a quote from the Bible didn’t come just as quick…or at all for that matter? Instead of the L.Boogie quote couldn’t I have just spat out Galation 6:7 with ? Instead of quoting Jay-Z, "A wise man told me dont argue with fools,because people from a distance can't tell who is who." Why cant I just quote Provervs 18:2? Who is Ms. Hill for me to quote? Who the heck is this Jay-Z dude for me to quote so fluently? Sure, I can quote some words from the Bible, but not only can I not always tell you what scripture it came from, but I probably couldn’t even tell you the book or whether it was the new or old testiment! Shameful!! I know my own laziness is why I can’t quote these scriptures, but does that make it any better? It’s not like the language in the Bible is too hard for me to comprehend. If I can understand Lil Wayne’s verse on T-Pain’s “Can’t Believe it”,I should be able to understand King James! Standing in the face of God when he ask me why I cant quote his scriptures am I any better than the car theif who keeps getting caught and answering to the judge every 6 months? No, not really. I know better just as much as they do, but that doesn’t stop me. Sure, I have my moments when life gets so hard that I read the Bible everyday for a week or a month or two, but how long does that last? How long does that really last before I just start leaving my Bible in the car so it’s there the one day a week (Sunday) I decide to crack it open? God knows my heart, but that doesn’t help. If anything I think it’s worst. Sometimes I wish I never came to this realiztion because if I’m really honest with myself to say I will do better is…well, I don’t know what it is. Will I actually buckle down and put it into action or will I just write this in vain? Again, this doesn’t really have a happy ending or words to encourage to do better, just venting on stuff that really bothers me…to some point right? Not enough to really change right? Disgusting! Absolutely disgusting!! Pray for the Kid!

Throwback Thursday: Sittin Up In My Room

Brandy hasn't really been hot lately. I'm starting to ask "Is that Ray J's sister"? LOL! Just kidding folks! This is still one of my ALL time favorite songs! If you saw me riding solo in my car listening to this, you probably would have thought I wrote the damn song myself! Enjoy!

Aaliyah

I really couldn't think of a non cliché way to start this blog w/out sounding cheesey. "Aaliyah, she was one in a million" or " I miss you, baby gir". So, I'm just going to keep it one hundred. Aaliyah passed away 8 years today and most would say she passed too soon. But hey we all have our calling, right? Is it better that we live to be 84 and not do a damn thing with our life or live to the tender age of 22 loved by millions because of your ground breaking artistry and not tabloids and mess? Not to take anything away from "baby girl" (as Timbaland called her) but we should all live our life for a purpose and not just to work and be seen. Aaliyah was heavily involved in the change of music that we hear today. If it wasn't for her taking a chance on new producers, Timbaland and Miss E. Elliiot music would probably still have that new jack swing sound. In her memory I will play one of her most memerable songs, preceeded by a predictable statement: Aaliyah, you were truly one in a million. Deuces!

I get it from my mama...or grandma

Why do some people want to have children? Now, not "want" children in the manner you accidentally got knocked up so you're having this kid; but WANT as in this was planned!! Do you feel you have too much time and money to spend on yourself, so you spend it on a child? Do you want someone to love you beside your now deceased goldfish (RIP Walter)? Seriously, why do some people want kids??? I know why I want to have kids: I just want to see a person running around that looks at acts like me. If I have to feed them, so be it, but I really just want to see another part of me. So, I'm talking to my mom and aparently I do things like my grandmother and I don't even realize it. For example, everyone in my family knows not to tell Bigmama ( my grandma) when they ate something good because she thinks (and its possibly true) that she is the worlds greatest cook and whatever you had, she can make it better!! Now, that doesn't sound like a prob, but it can get annoying. "Oh, you had a blackberry cobbler? Bring me some blackberries and I'll make you one". It's kinda, like, Bigmama, just leave it alone. But the other day I decided to do some cooking. It was good and I was getting compliments across the board. So of course I started feeling myself. So I kept walking around asking, "Hey, do you think I can make this better than such and such". After hours of doing that, my mom was like, "you're just like your grandmother". Damnit! She was right! LOL! So, I've compiled a list of all my personalities and trates that I think I get from certain members of my family.

My cooking abilities-both grandmama's

The reserved way I carry myself-Mother

My "skies the limit, sometimes naïve, optimistic view"-Father

Road rage-Father

Frugal with my money-Bigmama (grandma on mothers side)

Maintaining GREAT credit-Mother

Timely and usually early (Annoyed to the point of anger from being late) -Father

Sarcastic humor-Father

My "eff what they're doing, I walk to the beat of my own drum"-Father & grandmother (on mothers side)

My arrogance (or very sure of myself when i'm good at something)-Father, Bigmama

My conspiracy theory train of thoughts and always questioning the "man"-Father

I'll give you my last-Father

Make you very aware when you piss me off-Father

Hard on the outside, but a sensitve person on the inside-Father

Creativeness-Father

Most likely to cut my husband if he ever does me wrong-Muff (grandma on fathers side)

Rarely judging because I always see both sides of the story-Father

Wow! Didn't realize how much of my dad I was like! Until I did this, now I see why my mom always says, "you're crazy, just like your dad!" LOL! This was rather fun. I think you should too do the same or at least think about your traits and where they come from. It's the closest thing to ancestry.com without the fees.

Who do you get your traits from???

Just watch it!

OMG! Watch the whole, whole thing. The ending is freaking awesome!!

Funny Fridays

Only a genius of a comedian can do what this man did with Seasame Street! This is freaking hilarious! Enjoy! Hope this sends you off right for the weekend!

Getcha Some

"Athiest turn Christian when I rock my True Religions" are just a few bars or one liners from Big Sean. I told you about this kid a couple of months ago. Again, I think he has very much potential to be one of the better lyricist in the rap game. I wasn't too fond of this single, but I guess it is the most radio/106 & Park friendly song on his mix tape. The video is cool, but dude is waving his hands way too much. It's for the special effects, but still, too much. Anywho, look out for Kanye making his co-sign cameo in the video.

**If you want to hear more from Big Sean, you can download his two mix tapes from his website.